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My Dearest Ban-Ban,

Forgive me :)
I may not be with you right now; time check: 1:08 a.m. but I may still be with you in spirit! Kahit malayo, I will make sure, na abot na abot pa rin natin ang isa't-isa :) yeah.
Ahem.ahem.
INTRO: (again) I'm really really really really really sorry for not staying :( I think I'm sleeping tonight with regrets but, well, at least, the sessionistas lessened the drama. They're just freaking awesome! ahhhhh XD Anyway, I just wanted you to know how much I like it is to stay, maski di ka overnight, ughh. 12 pa man na guro curfew ko. #cinderella.

I can't afford to miss the party so here's my :

• ROSE

Yeah, I know how to draw one :)

With matching "Moves Like Jagger" ☻


BAN. I really missed a lot. I missed partying with you and mae last night. "sigh" I hope you enjoyed my video. We went home late already, but I still got the grooves to dance in front of the webcam ;) #insane. Don't worry about me, I do that all the time. 
P.S. I'm sorry for the quality. 

• CANDLE + CUPCAKE

It's homemade. 

DARN! I haven't made any wishes for you at your party. How could I miss that? :(( #sadness. 

Yet, things could either be said or written, this time I choose to write for you. I kinda miss doing that lately. Either way, "gadulot" man gyapon. You know what I mean :) 

BAN. I wish you all the happiness in life. Mapa love man, career, studies, relationships with family and friends, and all others. I wish you a very very healthy body. Keep it up, actually. I wish you more birthdays, and cakes, and packages to come. I wish you a very successful future, I can see it already. I wish you more blessings from God and more love from the people around you. You may now blow your candle ;)

• PERSONAL MESSAGE: PERSONAL TREASURE

BAN. I hope you had accepted my apology. I hope that my blog will help me make up for you:) I'm very happy that at least, we had the time together. Not to mention, the "cut" that almost creeped you out. Though we're far away, our friendship still remains. Though we're far away, we've always been the same. BAN. I'm always here for you. Just give me a ring, and I'll answer your call. Btw, I've decided, nga ma globe na gid ko ya! lol. Anyway, If you could look back, we've been through a lot without having each other's company, yet still, don't hesitate to knock at my door and together we'll beat the bitches down. #asif. lol. BAN. always take good care of yourself. and oh, take good care of mia, too. Huwag kayong mawawala ha :)) I love you! Happy Happy 18th Birthday VAN ♥

-Zanny 

She's Blue: Her Dilemmas

As she lends down the envelope to her, she responded nothing but a heartache. Flashing an indifferent look broke her heart. All she needed was help but it seems that some matters are not important to her and are insignificant. All she needed was attention because that particular matter involves gold. "sigh"
And to add to her dismay, she realized that his matters are more particular to her(not she).
So depressing it is to feel this way. So depressing it is to feel this way.

Damn! Damn! Damn! Less loved, she stares blankly at the shadows of the wall, feeling the droplets fall down her cheeks. Yet, she can't let her emotions rule her, she can't let the droplets fall again, she can't let depression beat her, and she can't give life to her thoughts as what she believes in. She just can't because she shouldn't be. End of story. She opened her eyes, got up from bed, brushed her hair, and lived the day. 

Knock Knock

Let me extend my deepest and most heartfelt gratitude to you My fren, Lola, Ness, Emjay, Est, && Nixx...

I should start by saying,..or rather shouting, "AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!" NA SURPRISE GD KO SANG GIN UBRA NIYO! KAMO NA! KAMO NA ANG SAGAD! (breath in, breath out)..okay.

Guys, I can't tell how happy I am :)) 

Happy ako kay:

• Though the rain had been falling so hard, na push through man gyapon ang videoke ta. Thanks guys for the amot :))
• Awesome ang COUNTDOWN! Na feel ko gid nga seventeen na ko :D
• When the sun was up, you were still there beside me. as in beside gd ya kay ga sinardinas ta :)))lol
• Though, I was saddened because nixie, mark and desiree had not made it in the afternoon, my family had a surprise visit! as.in way gd sila ga hambal nga makadto sila. AHHHH! 
• And of course, when the finale came. When you surprised me with the UNEXPECTED VIDEO. ♥♥♥

:')

I don't know. I can't describe this feeling. I've never felt this way before. naks. pru tuod. Nahuya gd ko maghibi sa tupad niyo Niz, Nes, and Purs, but I can't help it. Grabe hibi ko kay...chakto ka ling, abi ko way gd kamo surprise or what, BUT I WAS WRONG. Really wrong. You had the perfect timing. Ka sagad sa inyoo. AHHHH! It was the BEST gift. I am really grateful for all the efforts. It was the best music video ever. chakto ka nes, mas nami 'to kaysa sa You and I ni Lady Gaga. I didn't expect that you would make a way for others who are also special to me, to be a part of your most precious gift. It really means a lot. :)) You all know, nga tam.an sakon ka senti and emotional..so here are my personal messages to each one of you.. please bear with me. 

• NIX, Though we barely see each other, I'm very happy that you made it on my birthday. You shocked me with your greeting; masking tape on your forehead. awwe ;) Thank you so much Nix, Nanay. I really enjoyed your havey jokes. I really have fun with your company. :)) Halong ka gd da sa west, or shall I say, halong sila simo. :D Next stop---Your Birthday! :) Ilabsyou ♥
• EST, Though you're very far away, you still managed to keep in touch :)) I miss you so much. Thank you gd sa greeting! I really appreciate your efforts. Sa pag tindog sa CR sang boys, stuffs like that :)) A simple greeting means a lot to me. When can I see you? awwe. Take care always, I miss your voice na. Ilabsyou ♥
• EMJAY,....I hate you!hehe. Thank you thank you so much mark. I'm uber happy because you did everything to party and celebrate with us. All the way from miagao, you never failed to surprise me! I will really treasure the efforts, from "your greeting" to missed classes to nstp and to your mom's misunderstanding. (so sorry for that) I'm really thankful for everything. Take care always, good luck sa studies. Ilabsyou ♥
• NES, my remedy :) Thank you thank you so much for making it though you didn't feel well early that day. Resurrected! I love dancing my ass off that night with you. I am grateful for all the efforts, your skills; mapa drawing, lettering, singing, dancing, acting, and jebacuating. Natingala man ko ngaa dala mo bago lang laptop ni jessa, pru gn pabayan ko na lang. Hayyy, Mu to na gale?! awwwwwe dagdag heart ko. Thanks for everything. I support you. Take care always, Ilabsyou ♥
• NIZ, I'm just right by your side ;) Thank you thank you so much for being at my side through the EPIC times of our lives. I don't know how could I ever repay you with all the efforts. Nagpakahuya-huya kamo ni purs, and it means everything to me :) Gahd, I'm having a hard time expressing through words my gratitude to all of you. Ling, Never akong mawawala, always remember that. kahit na wala tayong mga maaasahan na telepono, I know, we know, that we'll always have each other just like the deck of cards. I always admire you for being a great and true friend to me. Next year, ikaw gd una ma debut :)) I will make it up to youu XD Good luck gd sa studies, always positive lang esp. sa math 11 :) Take care always, Ilabsyou ♥
• PURS, my Fren :) I will always open the door for you ;) You don't have to knock, just break in.lol. Thank you thank you so much for making me this happy:)) Na touch gd ko. After all that we've been through na prove ta gd how strong ang atun friendship. I will always be grateful for all the efforts, especially sa greetings sa mga friends and classmates. Kung indi dahil sa imo, sa inyu, I would never been this happier. Thank you thank you so much sa pag compile sang video. Everything just fell right into place. You are always welcome at my place, huwag kang mahiya, you are already a sister to me, diba 'te? :) You did very well. Saludo ako sa'yo. "YOU ARE THAT "FREN" TO ME TOO." :) Remember that. You just made me feel so loved by you, and that's the best feeling ever. Chakto ka gd, grabe ang pagDULOT. Take care always, Ilabsyou ♥

FOR THE LAST TIME, THANK YOU THANK YOU SO MUCH. YOU MADE EVERYTHING SO PERFECT, SO GREAT. YOU MADE ME SOOO HAPPY---AND THAT'S THE BEST GIFT I'VE EVER RECEIVED. I LOVE YOU. A second, a minute, an hour, a day goes by. I'm hoping just to be by your side :)) NO, NOTHING WORKS LIKE YOU!

ps. I felt so blessed guys, so blessed :)

LAB,

zan ♥

Unknown Friend

Credits: Nestor Clavel Jr.

The wind shouts, as I step on this land 

Piles of sticks, of woods to take, I demand  

I found myself lying on the grass 

I didn't expect, came with grace giving his hand  

I thought he could stay, to bid my thank you's   

But then, he just rushed, left; and it was him I lose  

I sought him, but there wasn't a clue  

Another missed chance of knowing a boo

Because I was coerced to post something here in order to start really the act of blogging, I got tangled with my old cattleya notes that were once required by my most admired yet lunatic teacher of literature with the initials A.D. This is where I found the poem entitled "Unknown Friend" along with some of my indescribable products of imagination and poetry. I forgot to whom I dedicated this poem but I do recall that this was really for "someone". :)yeah. As far as I can still remember, this was our last activity before we enter short stories. The whole class went out of the classroom and everyone looked for his inspiration. This is where I found myself; at the island.