Getaway #1

Love is when friends take an adventure and spend a getaway together despite of their busy schedules and "new lives". 

FINALLY. just finally, we are all set, I guess merely the four of us. We've been planning for some sort of escape from all the drama and issues and lots of blah blah blah back then at summer, yet we had pursued it only at this time of the year. It was absolutely right in time, because three days after our trip is Christmas. Not to mention, that we're actually setting the dates a year before the world "might" end. 

When and where?

Just so you know, everything was instant. Instant planning, deciding, and inviting. It's not like, "okay, next next week we'll be going on a trip, we have to decide now, so we could have a week or so to prepare." It was like, "my grandma's gonna be out next week, tell them ASAP and guys, ask for effing permissions!" I don't know, but everything just went way too fast. Of course, because it was instantly finalized, some of the good friends haven't made it, and in my part, I got trouble in asking permission. You know, parents always ask every single detail about your proposed "project". December 20 and 21, it is. It's vacation sooo we've got nothing to worry about schedules and classes. Damires Hills, it is. I can't remember if Eunice suggested it all, but she made it all happen, anyway.☺Since Janiuay is out of town and more or less it will take an hour to travel from the city, Eunice offered their house back there for an overnight stay for us.

Damires is...

A panoramic shot by Nestor Clavel

different. If you want to try something new, get refreshed by merely overlooking at a vast rice field, trees, and nipa hut cottages, if you're sick of sandy white beaches and just want to see a pleasant view that is uplifting to your eyes and heart, might as well visit this place. 

Underwater...

Damires has its infinity-like pool with a miniature waterfalls. Our cottage was just at the side of the pool so we've got nothing to worry about when it comes to our valuables left and jumping into the water. We've taken a lot of pictures and tried different stunts underwater with the special swimming classes held for our dear friend, Hilary. Because of our vanity, and because of the stupid handrail in the pool, Hilary and I went out of the water with the fvcking bruises left on our legs and feet!

Highlights...

After dipping in the pool, drinking some beverages, playing fun and games and munching some food and chips at the table, we had to leave the inland paradise as the sun goes down. Sad to say, our hearts broke when we had not tried the zip line because it costs too much and we had not gone to some hiking or stuffs like that around the place by the time Eunice's father arrived to fetch us.☺It was a sort of relief when we finally left the annoying strangers who are too friendly to bother talk to us in a very "unsuitable" way that would make us feel very uncomfortable. :\ 

At Eunice's house, we were served with a very luscious pansit, cooked by her father, and a very scrumptious lechon manok. It really feels great to spend dinner time together with your closest friends and talk about all the fun you had earlier of the day. Though we were very tired and sleepy, we didn't let the day pass without having our favorite past time: (drum roll please) PHOTOSHOOT. Eunice and I had most of the shots. No, EUNICE had most of the shots, talk about 58 solo frames. Vain much girl. 

After doing the girl stuffs, we decided to watch Never Let Me Go, but the movie failed to give us an appealing impression, so the two ladies fell asleep first. Midnight came and we lie-downed to get ready for our morning exercise the next day. 

When the sun was up, we went out of the house to breath the refreshing air from the hills and see the green atmosphere surrounding our place. As we had dinuguan for breakfast, we tried to reminisce memories way back from high school, such a great time. We all know that these little I'm-in-cloud-nine times would have to end so before going back to reality in the city, we flaunted our very outrageous yet SEXY moves with our favorite beat at the moment!

Sexy and I Know It - LMFAO 

Bottomline...

Spending time together this Christmas Season is yet the best gift I've, we've ever received. Trips like this don't happen all the time, and only through PLAN and COMMITMENT are these achieved. Thank you so much friends, Eunice, Hilary, and Nestor ♥ 

Hanggang sa susunod nating paglalakbay...

New World: No Giving up

2nd semester is just nearly 6 days to go. This means a new set of schedules, rooms, teachers, and classmates, yet with the same goal and motivation. 

Back in the days where my feet sore for all those tiring tracking of my rooms, where I couldn't just help it but to have a map or some tracking device. My school is huge. Talk about a 24-hectare university where you wish for a mean of transportation across the buildings. Back in the days where I met some annoying, arrogant, and lazy teachers; which is not good, and you were like checking the minutes left from time to time during classes. Back in the days where I have to make new friends and blend in. It was really hard to mingle with the new faces because each has his own field of interest, their nature is different from where I got used to. 

Indeed, everything was strange. Everything was different from high school. I thought it was gonna be easy, but it took me a while to adjust. 

The first day of school was the day that marked the end of my high school life. It was the day that I really felt that I am no longer a senior anymore, weird because I didn't feel that on our graduation day and the following days after. It was the day where I finally went back to my senses and realized I'm in a whole new world now. 

As I was adjusting and exploring, I felt loneliness, sadness, and boredom. It was as if every minute I want to meet with my friends 'coz I miss them so badly! Well, I know, they're all part of the drama. I know, I'll get by and I did. With the help of my closest friends, all the sickness went away. Every time we see each other, I realize I was never alone. However, I know that I shouldn't rely on them which made me befriend my classmates and get to know them more. They are not bad after all, nor neither good as what I expected. The thing is, I can go well with them, with their interests, and views. I'm happy 'coz I was never out of place.  Yet still, you can't refuse to choose the people you wanna spend your time with at school and you can't refuse to not like them all. 

Sometimes, I wonder if this is the place I should be. 

But if not here, where?

One morning, as I was making it to my first class, some questions just popped out inside my head, and I wonder if I could ever make it, not to my first class, but to my graduation day #futuristic. I wonder if I could get a degree on BS Accountancy on time. I wonder if I could make it to the cut-offs and pass all the qualifying exams each year. I wonder if I'm still gonna be a regular accountancy student four years later. AND I wonder if I can handle everything with all the unsettled issues back home. 

Accounting was very new to me. It was a whole new word added to my vocabulary. I had lots of disappointments at school and my major subject was one of them. I'm disappointed because it seems that the whole system was unfair. I don't know but I felt that there's no more second chances at all. It was do or die. Oh well, I can't do anything about it, I just have to face it. Instead of whining, I took it as a challenge. I didn't stop even there's nothing option left but to give up, yet I didn't. I said to myself, "This is what I've chosen, I have nothing to do but to go with it." Every time I think of these stuffs, I ask God if what he thinks, I ask him, too if this is also His plan for me. Unfortunately, I still don't have the answers, but somehow God gave me a sign. A sign that is meaningful to me. A sign that says, you're just getting started, you still have a long way to go. Fortunately, I made it to the first cut, and this was the sign I'm referring to. 

I know I can make it. I can make it because I believe. I believe because I have to. I have to because if not, no one will. 

This 2nd semester, I have to exert more effort and more focus on my second accounting subject. There's no more turning back. I can make it. I can make it. I will. I will. So if you think you're that bitch who doesn't believe in me, think again, karma might just hunt you! 

Extraterrestrial Return: E.R

Hey there! It has been a while since I last posted here in my blog, not to mention the two other posts which were not under my specifications of giving you a connotative or a denotative meaning of the things I wanna share with you. However, I still wanted you to know that I'm still alive but barely breathing. Since the beginning, I had to note every draft so when I'll have my vacant time, I could finally finish them up, but it seems that every day gets more and more tiresome that I end up nothing but hitting the sack and worse, forgetting my self-project, my blog.

We're having our sembreak and I'm coming back with a different dimension as this:
 
Say what you gotta say because my friends and I became demonic and angelic at the same time the moment we crawled our way to the light and felt wild with the whipping of our hair back and forth. Yeah. Posing in front of the camera and feeling sexy and stupid in front of the web cam are ways of how we bond together. Since my buddies and I seldom see each other, we make sure that during breaks we enjoy and have the time of our lives all together again, and this video  became our very first "production" as a tribute to Katy Perry's magnetizing E.T, regardless of our T.G.I.F. memorable version, that one of Katy's too. :)
Expect more from me this break, I may not be whining neither grieving nor blurting but I may be sharing more lighter and positive aura now that I've learned how important it is to have that optimistic attitude.Now I quote, "Think of the things that could go right and not of the things that could go wrong." 
P.S. We had disabled embedding on our video so pardon us, but you have to watch it exclusively on youtube :) Thank you! 

Congratulations! You're finally legal!

My Dearest Ban-Ban,

Forgive me :)
I may not be with you right now; time check: 1:08 a.m. but I may still be with you in spirit! Kahit malayo, I will make sure, na abot na abot pa rin natin ang isa't-isa :) yeah.
Ahem.ahem.
INTRO: (again) I'm really really really really really sorry for not staying :( I think I'm sleeping tonight with regrets but, well, at least, the sessionistas lessened the drama. They're just freaking awesome! ahhhhh XD Anyway, I just wanted you to know how much I like it is to stay, maski di ka overnight, ughh. 12 pa man na guro curfew ko. #cinderella.

I can't afford to miss the party so here's my :

• ROSE

Yeah, I know how to draw one :)

With matching "Moves Like Jagger" ☻


BAN. I really missed a lot. I missed partying with you and mae last night. "sigh" I hope you enjoyed my video. We went home late already, but I still got the grooves to dance in front of the webcam ;) #insane. Don't worry about me, I do that all the time. 
P.S. I'm sorry for the quality. 

• CANDLE + CUPCAKE

It's homemade. 

DARN! I haven't made any wishes for you at your party. How could I miss that? :(( #sadness. 

Yet, things could either be said or written, this time I choose to write for you. I kinda miss doing that lately. Either way, "gadulot" man gyapon. You know what I mean :) 

BAN. I wish you all the happiness in life. Mapa love man, career, studies, relationships with family and friends, and all others. I wish you a very very healthy body. Keep it up, actually. I wish you more birthdays, and cakes, and packages to come. I wish you a very successful future, I can see it already. I wish you more blessings from God and more love from the people around you. You may now blow your candle ;)

• PERSONAL MESSAGE: PERSONAL TREASURE

BAN. I hope you had accepted my apology. I hope that my blog will help me make up for you:) I'm very happy that at least, we had the time together. Not to mention, the "cut" that almost creeped you out. Though we're far away, our friendship still remains. Though we're far away, we've always been the same. BAN. I'm always here for you. Just give me a ring, and I'll answer your call. Btw, I've decided, nga ma globe na gid ko ya! lol. Anyway, If you could look back, we've been through a lot without having each other's company, yet still, don't hesitate to knock at my door and together we'll beat the bitches down. #asif. lol. BAN. always take good care of yourself. and oh, take good care of mia, too. Huwag kayong mawawala ha :)) I love you! Happy Happy 18th Birthday VAN ♥

-Zanny 

She's Blue: Her Dilemmas

As she lends down the envelope to her, she responded nothing but a heartache. Flashing an indifferent look broke her heart. All she needed was help but it seems that some matters are not important to her and are insignificant. All she needed was attention because that particular matter involves gold. "sigh"
And to add to her dismay, she realized that his matters are more particular to her(not she).
So depressing it is to feel this way. So depressing it is to feel this way.

Damn! Damn! Damn! Less loved, she stares blankly at the shadows of the wall, feeling the droplets fall down her cheeks. Yet, she can't let her emotions rule her, she can't let the droplets fall again, she can't let depression beat her, and she can't give life to her thoughts as what she believes in. She just can't because she shouldn't be. End of story. She opened her eyes, got up from bed, brushed her hair, and lived the day. 

Knock Knock

Let me extend my deepest and most heartfelt gratitude to you My fren, Lola, Ness, Emjay, Est, && Nixx...

I should start by saying,..or rather shouting, "AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!" NA SURPRISE GD KO SANG GIN UBRA NIYO! KAMO NA! KAMO NA ANG SAGAD! (breath in, breath out)..okay.

Guys, I can't tell how happy I am :)) 

Happy ako kay:

• Though the rain had been falling so hard, na push through man gyapon ang videoke ta. Thanks guys for the amot :))
• Awesome ang COUNTDOWN! Na feel ko gid nga seventeen na ko :D
• When the sun was up, you were still there beside me. as in beside gd ya kay ga sinardinas ta :)))lol
• Though, I was saddened because nixie, mark and desiree had not made it in the afternoon, my family had a surprise visit! as.in way gd sila ga hambal nga makadto sila. AHHHH! 
• And of course, when the finale came. When you surprised me with the UNEXPECTED VIDEO. ♥♥♥

:')

I don't know. I can't describe this feeling. I've never felt this way before. naks. pru tuod. Nahuya gd ko maghibi sa tupad niyo Niz, Nes, and Purs, but I can't help it. Grabe hibi ko kay...chakto ka ling, abi ko way gd kamo surprise or what, BUT I WAS WRONG. Really wrong. You had the perfect timing. Ka sagad sa inyoo. AHHHH! It was the BEST gift. I am really grateful for all the efforts. It was the best music video ever. chakto ka nes, mas nami 'to kaysa sa You and I ni Lady Gaga. I didn't expect that you would make a way for others who are also special to me, to be a part of your most precious gift. It really means a lot. :)) You all know, nga tam.an sakon ka senti and emotional..so here are my personal messages to each one of you.. please bear with me. 

• NIX, Though we barely see each other, I'm very happy that you made it on my birthday. You shocked me with your greeting; masking tape on your forehead. awwe ;) Thank you so much Nix, Nanay. I really enjoyed your havey jokes. I really have fun with your company. :)) Halong ka gd da sa west, or shall I say, halong sila simo. :D Next stop---Your Birthday! :) Ilabsyou ♥
• EST, Though you're very far away, you still managed to keep in touch :)) I miss you so much. Thank you gd sa greeting! I really appreciate your efforts. Sa pag tindog sa CR sang boys, stuffs like that :)) A simple greeting means a lot to me. When can I see you? awwe. Take care always, I miss your voice na. Ilabsyou ♥
• EMJAY,....I hate you!hehe. Thank you thank you so much mark. I'm uber happy because you did everything to party and celebrate with us. All the way from miagao, you never failed to surprise me! I will really treasure the efforts, from "your greeting" to missed classes to nstp and to your mom's misunderstanding. (so sorry for that) I'm really thankful for everything. Take care always, good luck sa studies. Ilabsyou ♥
• NES, my remedy :) Thank you thank you so much for making it though you didn't feel well early that day. Resurrected! I love dancing my ass off that night with you. I am grateful for all the efforts, your skills; mapa drawing, lettering, singing, dancing, acting, and jebacuating. Natingala man ko ngaa dala mo bago lang laptop ni jessa, pru gn pabayan ko na lang. Hayyy, Mu to na gale?! awwwwwe dagdag heart ko. Thanks for everything. I support you. Take care always, Ilabsyou ♥
• NIZ, I'm just right by your side ;) Thank you thank you so much for being at my side through the EPIC times of our lives. I don't know how could I ever repay you with all the efforts. Nagpakahuya-huya kamo ni purs, and it means everything to me :) Gahd, I'm having a hard time expressing through words my gratitude to all of you. Ling, Never akong mawawala, always remember that. kahit na wala tayong mga maaasahan na telepono, I know, we know, that we'll always have each other just like the deck of cards. I always admire you for being a great and true friend to me. Next year, ikaw gd una ma debut :)) I will make it up to youu XD Good luck gd sa studies, always positive lang esp. sa math 11 :) Take care always, Ilabsyou ♥
• PURS, my Fren :) I will always open the door for you ;) You don't have to knock, just break in.lol. Thank you thank you so much for making me this happy:)) Na touch gd ko. After all that we've been through na prove ta gd how strong ang atun friendship. I will always be grateful for all the efforts, especially sa greetings sa mga friends and classmates. Kung indi dahil sa imo, sa inyu, I would never been this happier. Thank you thank you so much sa pag compile sang video. Everything just fell right into place. You are always welcome at my place, huwag kang mahiya, you are already a sister to me, diba 'te? :) You did very well. Saludo ako sa'yo. "YOU ARE THAT "FREN" TO ME TOO." :) Remember that. You just made me feel so loved by you, and that's the best feeling ever. Chakto ka gd, grabe ang pagDULOT. Take care always, Ilabsyou ♥

FOR THE LAST TIME, THANK YOU THANK YOU SO MUCH. YOU MADE EVERYTHING SO PERFECT, SO GREAT. YOU MADE ME SOOO HAPPY---AND THAT'S THE BEST GIFT I'VE EVER RECEIVED. I LOVE YOU. A second, a minute, an hour, a day goes by. I'm hoping just to be by your side :)) NO, NOTHING WORKS LIKE YOU!

ps. I felt so blessed guys, so blessed :)

LAB,

zan ♥

Unknown Friend

Credits: Nestor Clavel Jr.

The wind shouts, as I step on this land 

Piles of sticks, of woods to take, I demand  

I found myself lying on the grass 

I didn't expect, came with grace giving his hand  

I thought he could stay, to bid my thank you's   

But then, he just rushed, left; and it was him I lose  

I sought him, but there wasn't a clue  

Another missed chance of knowing a boo

Because I was coerced to post something here in order to start really the act of blogging, I got tangled with my old cattleya notes that were once required by my most admired yet lunatic teacher of literature with the initials A.D. This is where I found the poem entitled "Unknown Friend" along with some of my indescribable products of imagination and poetry. I forgot to whom I dedicated this poem but I do recall that this was really for "someone". :)yeah. As far as I can still remember, this was our last activity before we enter short stories. The whole class went out of the classroom and everyone looked for his inspiration. This is where I found myself; at the island.